happened again, and nothing can be done now, i am so tired and fed up..i'm not going to give up though.
even if i do get pulled down again, i have to manage to pick myself up, and i can do that on my own, i dont need anyones help, because ive been through this on my own all these years, so i can do it. just good and very lucky to know i have support.
but i can do this on my own, please give me my space.
i may fall back down, but i know how to get back up again.
and i am actually in love with Mogwai.
About Me
- Shakiba
- at the South, United Kingdom
- description of what? i dont like to refer to anything as normal, or lable it, people lable everyone instantly without realising, people in the high proffesion jobs have been taught for years to lable others and to diagnose them with a lable, years of learning to lable someone as something, books and lectures on how to lable a certain person with certain needs, and all for what? to bonbard them with medicine and so called treatments. i miss my past in Iran, and i miss everything i had there, but here, i have a new future, and i'm greatful for what i have now, so greatful
Sunday, 11 July 2010
Monday, 5 July 2010
you call it love
i dont understand, i might just be too young and too naive? but that doesnt mean i'm not clever enough to know facts for myself, for my own good.
i've tried so hard, and harder everytime to break a habit and now i have managed to pick myself up, but some things still manage to pull me back down again, take me on the same road i was on..i am tired and fed up of it, i am trying to move on and put this in the past. i dont even want to look back on this "thing", im so afraid it will come back, but being afraid is the right i have, and it is my strength that will not let it come back again.
Why can't you help me pass this phase? after all we are suppose to be in "love", yet your already planning out how we will end. i dont plan, i never have, and never will, it's like you dont understand after being let down a certain amount of times, you will get put off of planning simple things ahead. you wouldnt know how it feels like to plan to see someone you care about for so long, dress up nicely, have a smile on, put on your best dress just to try and impress, and then for what? for one person, that another excuse holds them back from seeing me. why Should i plan, when i chose not to anymore. i chose not to be let down, not to dissolve into my sorrow, and feel left out of my own mind.
Your anger. as much as it frustrates me, it yet still manages to facinate me, how you look at me with your lightly blue coloured eyes, with such fuery and explosion at once, in one go, and that one glare melts me so, so much. how you manage to glare at me with the same eyes and make fluster and blush, questions me all at once.
i like the word beautiful, wouldnt you?
the presence of your smile, for that split second could of turned the world around, for me.
ease my mind and yours too.
i've tried so hard, and harder everytime to break a habit and now i have managed to pick myself up, but some things still manage to pull me back down again, take me on the same road i was on..i am tired and fed up of it, i am trying to move on and put this in the past. i dont even want to look back on this "thing", im so afraid it will come back, but being afraid is the right i have, and it is my strength that will not let it come back again.
Why can't you help me pass this phase? after all we are suppose to be in "love", yet your already planning out how we will end. i dont plan, i never have, and never will, it's like you dont understand after being let down a certain amount of times, you will get put off of planning simple things ahead. you wouldnt know how it feels like to plan to see someone you care about for so long, dress up nicely, have a smile on, put on your best dress just to try and impress, and then for what? for one person, that another excuse holds them back from seeing me. why Should i plan, when i chose not to anymore. i chose not to be let down, not to dissolve into my sorrow, and feel left out of my own mind.
Your anger. as much as it frustrates me, it yet still manages to facinate me, how you look at me with your lightly blue coloured eyes, with such fuery and explosion at once, in one go, and that one glare melts me so, so much. how you manage to glare at me with the same eyes and make fluster and blush, questions me all at once.
i like the word beautiful, wouldnt you?
the presence of your smile, for that split second could of turned the world around, for me.
ease my mind and yours too.
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